I've always been a planner. I found my love for event planning in high school, and for the past 20 years I've had the privilege to work and volunteer with so many different events. Making the list, putting the pieces together, promoting, then sitting back and watching the activity unfold...I love the process.
When you plan, you have expectations. Good planning means also planning for the unexpected, thinking through all the what if's and making a plan to take care of them so your events run smoothly.
I guess it is only natural to let something like that spill over into my personal life. I like to plan it out too. My husband gets so upset with me sometimes for "over thinking" things. I like my list, and I like my road map.
I've been thinking about this subject a lot the past few days. As 2013 comes to an end, I have to tell you it was one of the toughest years of my life. It wasn't tragedy, misfortune or illness that makes this year stand out. It was the battle of self control.
I wrestled with God over control of my life for a long time. In September 2012, I surrendered to God's call to let him lead. Immediately a huge burden was lifted off my heart, and how I expected the pieces of my puzzle to fall into place because I had made this ultimate decision. I realize now that was just the start of the learning process he had planned for me. Self does not die easily...especially in my hard headed, unyielding world.
2013 has been a wrestling match. I've fought,and I've worried. But I sit here right now looking back on months of bumpy roads, in situations where I could do nothing but look up...and see how every need, and some incredibly special wish list items, were filled...all without my help. His provision has been simply amazing. The delights of my heart he has given on top miraculous. I'm awestruck at his goodness and mercy.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with ALL your heart. Jeremiah 29:13
Part of the life verses I claimed many years ago, the last verse sums up my 2013...the importance of seeking with ALL your heart.
Make a commitment in 2014 to give him ALL of you. He gave ALL for us, does he not deserve it?
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Friday, December 20, 2013
Have you ever had one of those moments, where you have seen something a million times, but you finally "got it?" It happened to me last weekend watching the story of Christmas.
The ending of two insanely busy weeks, I had an opportunity to be a part of our church Christmas musical. Music was just the thing I needed to let me take a deep breath and get in the mood for the holiday season. I didn't realize I also needed a fresh message from something I had heard a million times before.
Mary delivered our precious Savior in a stable, tired, surrounded by animals...yes, I've heard it before. Spotlight shining on her alone, as part of a monologue, the beautiful young lady playing Mary said, "I did the best I could."
"I did the best I could." The perfectionist inside cried aloud, "I did the best I could." The most perfect thing that happened on this earth was carried out with an unwed teenage mother, in a stable far from home, who did the best she could.
God brought his son not into perfection, but into a home of love and a home of obedience. They were doing the best they could. That is what he asks of us.
We want to pride ourselves on our lives and boast of our success. Other times we want to cower in defeat over circumstances that we can't change or that live in our past.
God is not looking for perfection, he's looking for a willingness to serve and a humbleness that can take on the imperfections and turn them for his Glory. Who among us is not able to do that.
Father, thank you for sending your son into this world to save us and to set an example of how we can live our lives for your glory. Remind us this Christmas, as the presents are passed and the days are filled with activity, to focus on the reason we celebrate. Thank you loving us enough to not only forgive our imperfections, but to embrace them and use them for your glory.